He was very resltess last night. Didn't want his tea, and eventually ate a small amount (about 50g) of meat when I hand fed it to him. He couldn't seem to get comfortable and spent most of the night walking in and out the back door. When I went to bed, I discussed with xxx that the time looked like it had come and it might have to be tomorrow (today).
This morning Logan was outside and I went to give him his last dose of metacam. I wasn't sure when the vet could come out so didn't want him in pain while he was waiting. He was around the side of the house, moping about, and the spark had just gone from his eyes. I syringed it straight into his mouth, and then offered him his doggy treats, which he has eaten all along, even when he wanted nothing else. This morning he didn't even want them. I knew then that the time really had come.
The vets were brilliant. I was crying on the phone, trying to ask for someone to come out. It didn't help that Logan had come inside and was watching me. She discussed cremation with me, and I decided to have him cremated. That way when we move, he can come to.
Even though they came almost straight away, it was hard waiting. I spread his blanket out on the lawn, and he lay on it, while I sat beside him. Even xxx cried abit. It was hard when the vet actually arrived. Logan was watching them come toward us, and I don't know if he knew what was going on or not. The vet was very gentle and respectful, and the nurse was just wonderful. She cradled his head and cuddled him through the whole thing. xxx and I also sat with him, patting him while he went.
I think I cried more before and after than while it was actually happening. It was almost surreal. It's only been a few hours and I miss my boy already.